"We've got barefoot ladies & tricked out Mercedes"

"New friends & blue skies that never end

Hey, that's the way we like it

Good times, sunshine & summertime."

I still have not figured out the answers to life and the reasons why people do things - I never will. But I've learned that it is always good to have that one friend or friends that are there for you when you need them the most. The friend that you can call up at ANY time and pour your heart out or call up and grab a cup of coffee with with no reason whatsoever.

That is a true friend - that is a best friend.

I am so blessed to have more than one of these.

I have one truly best friend who I can pretty much talk about anything with. And then I have other really good ones who I know care about me and will always be there for me, that I treasure immensely.

That gets me through the toughest days and the days I just want to give up.

And if you find yourself questioning a friendship, just ask yourself, is this friendship a one way street? What ways am I benefiting from this friendship?

"You can't live your life for other people. You've got to do what's right for you, even if it hurts some people you love."

— Nicholas Sparks

Oh Life, why must you be so difficult sometimes?

I wish I could let go of things in the past easier...they seem to be coming back more and more and I have a difficult time letting them go completely. I then start to dwell on them and that gets in the way of things I'm doing now. I thought I had completely erased them from thought but now thats not looking that way. Am I erasing other things that I shouldn't be erasing and not knowing it? Am I slowly going back to the lifestyle I did not want because I keep on dwelling? How ironic is that. I wish life was simpler.

This is happening because I've been straying away from God. I see it now. I've become so busy and wrapped up with seeing old friends and the boyfriend that I've put aside my quiet time with God that I told myself I would NOT do over the summer. I wasn't going to be the one who completely forgets everything I learned over the school year and go back to be some stereotypical mindless teenager with no cares like I did last summer. It's really hard to admit but I did that last summer and it seems like I'm heading that way now. Lord, Help me, please. Help me to come back to you and yearn to be close to you again. I really need you and no one else.

Summertime :]

I looove summer.

I am so glad it is finally here, I can't believe it's here!

I got through my exams & the end of the year. I came out with

all As and one B+ for the semester, pretty happy about that (:

Right now I'm sitting at Bean groovy in Florence on my second

cup of coffee, just chillin'. Life is so good!

I'll be busy this summer taking Bio at FDtech & hopefully working

at barnes & noble (I have an interview tomorrow) If God wants me there

then so be it but if not, just gota keep looking for another job. (But hopefully

I get this one!)

I just wanted to write something now that I am done with my freshman

year. I can't believe all the AMAZING people I've met/become friends

with. I'm so glad this year turned out so good. Hopefully next year

will be even better!

"So long self, well it's been fun but I have found somebody else" -MercyMe

This past week I've felt such peace. I'm not sure how to describe it but God really has put a peace in my heart and it makes me so happy (:

Most are counting down the days till school is out but I'm just pretty much going with the flow,

not really worrying about tomorrow. I know everything will work out. This is an amazing feeling that can only be accomplished by giving it all to God, I wish everyone could feel this way.

I went to Texas this past weekend to see my uncle Stephen and Suraiya get married. It was an absolutely amazing experience. I loved traveling by myself & being able to do what I wanted. I loved seeing my family & meeting new people. The wedding was so beautiful too and I loved that we got to stay on a ranch instead of the usual hotel. I do believe more people need to get married more often :P

I'm looking forward to summer but not going to Florence and being away from the beach. But I'll be busy taking classes & working hopefully.
More later, just wanted to type a quick update. Hope you are doing well!

"Three in the morning...

...and I'm still awake so I pick up a pen and a page. And I started writing, just what I'd say if we were face to face."

Love this song (:

So my spring break this year, wasn't the greatest. Those that know me, know why. I've been sick

all week, hoping it'd get better but it hasn't. I don't understand why people do what they do or the way they make people feel. It's all human nature I suppose. God's strength helping me has really got me through this. I talked to David H. a couple nights ago and he was going through a similar situation. People are selfish, ever since the fall of man. There's really nothing you can do to change home someone thinks or acts. I try to suppress what I'm feeling but it doesn't work well.

I see that I need to make some hard changes to my life in order to live for God. I keep pushing them to the side, not wanting to acknowledge that I need to make them but they keep coming back.

Please pray for me, it's a tough time.

Yum...coffee...

einstein coffee can always make me happy (:

so, a lot has happened since I wrote last.

I got into the medical house for next year! (it is a residential house at my school that you can stay in if you are going into the medical field) They let me join even though I'm going into pharmacy (or thinking about it). I'm really excited about it. No more berry! Even though I did really love staying in berry, just the signing in and all was a hassle sometimes.

On a side note, I can not believe this semester is almost halfway through! It really seems like yesterday that I started school. SO much has happened since then.

I visited the aquarium here with Charisse. Well actually she had to go for a project so I decided to tag along. I love anything dealing with aquatic life. I found out that you can volunteer there and I'm really hoping to for next year! It seems like a really great atmosphere and experience.

A little unhappier news...daniel and I broke up. It was for the best. He realized first that we just can't be in a relationship together now. Through much thinking, I realized that he is right. A relationship takes so much time in your life. I'm not saying I regret the last ten months we we're dating, they were quite amazing. But now, I can focus so much more on God and do so much more.

Going to see the book of eli with Charisse today and hang with the girls at Morgans, yay! (:

Spring break in 1 week!

Good day...

Today has been an overall very good, not one of the best but progressively got better.

I had a bible study coffee date with Malia which was absolutely wonderful (: She is such an awe-inspiring godly woman, it really helps inspire me to strive to live better.

I've been struggling with some issues lately, not really pertaining to school.

Praying and music has been helping a lot.

I recently downloaded the album WOW 2010. I recommend buying it, it's amazing! Or send me an email and I can send you a few of the songs over AIM. The song Whatever You're Doing by Sanctus Real and Never Be the Same by Red has really helped me.

I've been studying the book of Corinthians and came across the ever famous "Love definition" verse. I really think this helped me a lot, it pertains to all relationships, not only the dating kind.

It helped me put things in perspective and what I am doing wrong when it comes to the

relationships I'm in.

It is almost like a checklist to figure out where a problem might be. Am I doing this? Check. Am i doing this? No, so I need to work on it.

It gives you a chance to step back and think woah! i don't think I'm doing this.

Just some quick thoughts before my night lab. Hope everyone is having a good week!

For reference:

1 Corinthians 13: 4-8

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves. Love never fails..."