"Three in the morning...

...and I'm still awake so I pick up a pen and a page. And I started writing, just what I'd say if we were face to face."

Love this song (:

So my spring break this year, wasn't the greatest. Those that know me, know why. I've been sick

all week, hoping it'd get better but it hasn't. I don't understand why people do what they do or the way they make people feel. It's all human nature I suppose. God's strength helping me has really got me through this. I talked to David H. a couple nights ago and he was going through a similar situation. People are selfish, ever since the fall of man. There's really nothing you can do to change home someone thinks or acts. I try to suppress what I'm feeling but it doesn't work well.

I see that I need to make some hard changes to my life in order to live for God. I keep pushing them to the side, not wanting to acknowledge that I need to make them but they keep coming back.

Please pray for me, it's a tough time.

Yum...coffee...

einstein coffee can always make me happy (:

so, a lot has happened since I wrote last.

I got into the medical house for next year! (it is a residential house at my school that you can stay in if you are going into the medical field) They let me join even though I'm going into pharmacy (or thinking about it). I'm really excited about it. No more berry! Even though I did really love staying in berry, just the signing in and all was a hassle sometimes.

On a side note, I can not believe this semester is almost halfway through! It really seems like yesterday that I started school. SO much has happened since then.

I visited the aquarium here with Charisse. Well actually she had to go for a project so I decided to tag along. I love anything dealing with aquatic life. I found out that you can volunteer there and I'm really hoping to for next year! It seems like a really great atmosphere and experience.

A little unhappier news...daniel and I broke up. It was for the best. He realized first that we just can't be in a relationship together now. Through much thinking, I realized that he is right. A relationship takes so much time in your life. I'm not saying I regret the last ten months we we're dating, they were quite amazing. But now, I can focus so much more on God and do so much more.

Going to see the book of eli with Charisse today and hang with the girls at Morgans, yay! (:

Spring break in 1 week!

Good day...

Today has been an overall very good, not one of the best but progressively got better.

I had a bible study coffee date with Malia which was absolutely wonderful (: She is such an awe-inspiring godly woman, it really helps inspire me to strive to live better.

I've been struggling with some issues lately, not really pertaining to school.

Praying and music has been helping a lot.

I recently downloaded the album WOW 2010. I recommend buying it, it's amazing! Or send me an email and I can send you a few of the songs over AIM. The song Whatever You're Doing by Sanctus Real and Never Be the Same by Red has really helped me.

I've been studying the book of Corinthians and came across the ever famous "Love definition" verse. I really think this helped me a lot, it pertains to all relationships, not only the dating kind.

It helped me put things in perspective and what I am doing wrong when it comes to the

relationships I'm in.

It is almost like a checklist to figure out where a problem might be. Am I doing this? Check. Am i doing this? No, so I need to work on it.

It gives you a chance to step back and think woah! i don't think I'm doing this.

Just some quick thoughts before my night lab. Hope everyone is having a good week!

For reference:

1 Corinthians 13: 4-8

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves. Love never fails..."

one "late" morning...

For the first time since summer, or actually I can not remember, I slept til eleven. I'm not a sleep in past nine thirty person.This could do with the fact I did not go to bed until four. Once again, have not done that since I'm not sure when. I didn't mind though, just the groggy feeling waking up since I slept so long was not welcoming.
I wanted to write at least one more thing before the year came to a close.
My Christmas was wonderful. I'm so thankful for the birth of our Savior. Knowing what happened on that day and the knowledge my sins were paid for by Him makes the day even more wonderful. I received a lot of amazing gifts that I appreciate, each one of them. I'll do a quick breakdown of the day...
I got up at six to do a surprise I planned a few days before. I was really excited about it, just not about waking up so early. David and I opened presents at moms first with Rachel and Hannah. Afterwards, we headed to Dads to open presents there. We had to get all this done early because we were leaving to go to Greenville to visit family. I had a great time with them, family gatherings are always funny and interesting.
Lately I've been struggling with decisions that have been heavily weighing on my mind: family, relationships, school. Please pray for me, I would really appreciate it.
Now to end with a small story that warmed my heart so much,
Rachel and Hannah wanted to be picked up early from daycare because they were incredibly bored. We were going to see a movie but it was sold out so we needed something else to do. We decided to get Starbucks hot chocolate, grab the chalk and head out to chalk Daniel's driveway. After drawing a detailed portrait of the Hubbs' snowmen family on their driveway we headed back to my car. I decided to sing Father Abraham on the way back, a song we sang when I was Denver.
I was singing, stopped and said "Now join in!"
Hannah, "I don't know that song"
Me, "What?! What are they teaching now in Sunday School these days?"
So I continued to sing it by myself on the way to the car. When we got in the car and started driving off, she said, "Can you sing it again?"
So on the entire ride home, Father Abraham was sung.
I receive a call later that night from my mom. She said, "I wanted to thank you" I figured she was talking about watching the kids for the day. "Yes, but also for teaching Hannah Father Abraham. She got home and would not stop singing it. I remember the song from when I was little but had forgot all about it until she started singing it. It made me so happy when I heard her singing it, but now she won't stop singing!"
This made me so happy when mom told me this. If you have younger brothers or sisters, be careful what you say or do because they are watching you every single minute (:

Monday Afternoon

So I've decided to start a blog.
I had one a long time ago but did not continue it once I reached high school.
I feel better, my thoughts more collected If I am able to write them down or type them.
Now that my short, quick explanation for my blog is out of the way...

Thoughts on a Monday Afternoon:
I have only two days, well three if you count today, until I get to go home for Christmas break. ONE last exam: chemistry. which i believe is slowly killing me and overloading my brain with all it's information.
I cant believe the semester is almost over. Many people say , "my how time flies by" but it really did go by so very fast. I had so many different unexpected things, good and bad happen to me. I struggled a lot with grades. I had a hard time understanding calculus, following my chemistry teacher, and thinking of new projects to do in sculpture. Now that it is over, I think "well that wasn't too bad"
I lost a good friend, gained some incredible new ones, and grew closer to others. I started winter guard at Charleston Southern University which I enjoy immensely. I love the people on it, love doing flag work and just overall having fun.
I'm also losing my roommate, but she's only moving down the hall to one of her best friend's room. I will truly miss her because we got along very well. It might be nice though having my own room if it comes to that or even meeting someone new that moves in. I know in God's hands, it will all work out.
Many good things have happened to ALL my friends that live all around SC and I'm so happy for them! I think this fall was a really good one. I'm looking forward to spring 2010.