Side note

Just thought for those who follow me on here, I have created a new travel blog for the semester for my trip to Spain!

http://adventureseneuropa.blogspot.com.es/

-Ginny

"Have a little faith in me"

Sometimes, ok not sometimes, quite a bit, I seem to lose my faith. Well, it more or less floats away from me and it takes me a while to find it again.
I forget though, no matter how many times I may seem to lose my faith, God never loses His in me. And that is such an uplifting fact to think about. No matter how many times I screw up or think things are never going to get better, God still has my life mapped out for me.

For those who may not know me as well, I have a tendency to act without thinking. Or at least I think its the right thing to do at the time.

I will never EVER claim to be perfect or that I always do the right thing. Far, far from it. If I seem to come off that way or portray that vibe, I apologize profusely.

No, I struggle with many, many things. Each day is a constant battle of right and wrong for me.

People will always make mistakes, it's how you deal with them that defines what kind of person you are.

And that's what I try to do, I try to deal with my imperfections. This isn't a one time "Oh, hey that's something I shouldn't be doing/saying. I'm going to stop now. The end."
No.
If it's truly something you struggle with, it will never be fully gone or rather you will not be able to get rid of it in one sweep. It's a job, working day by day by day to take control of it. And even then, when you think you have full control you have to be on your guard because anything could happen.

They always say the worst times/things hit you when things are going really good. I don't think God is trying to do this as a way to be mean. He wants us to be happy and not to see us struggle.
I firmly believe though He does it as a means of strengthening us. How can we gain strength if we don't push ourselves?

Life is a everyday constant battle that will never be totally easy or hard. It will have its good moments, great moments and bad moments. Life is about treasuring the good ones and learning from the bad ones.
We are only truly defeated if we give up.
We must persevere on.

So amazed at what I've seen, so much more than this old mind can hold.

I think I've quoted MercyMe before but I do absolutely love them. They can always help my thoughts center more on God and help me to re-evaluate my life. It reminds me of when I was younger and I chased and hungered after God with such a passion. I'm so glad I had that foundation even if one would call it a child like faith, having not hit with the reality of life and sin yet. I feel like if I didn't have what I had when I was younger then I might have really made some bad decisions going through the terrible moments in my life where I really strayed for God. But since I had that foundation, I knew, even though it took a long time sometimes, that God could only help me out of my pit I had fallen in.
I really hope that my sisters will discover the love of God as I did. I pray for them daily that they will.
Nobody truly knows the plan of God but sometimes you can reflect back on your life and kind of make out why things worked out the way they did and catch a fleeting glimpse of God's purpose.
I still don't know a hundred percent God's purpose for my life or where/what He wants me to do/go. I'm just taking each day as it comes and learning and growing from my mistakes.
It's really hard not to fall back into the ways of the world and do what everyone else is doing. I think that by dealing  and getting rid of certain things, I have been less stressed out and been able to focus more on God and be able to see what He wants me to do. I try now to have an excitement for each day He continues to let me live and do the most with my time. I truly love and enjoy my life. Not because it is "going good" or that I'm so blessed (even though I am) but because I see the beauty in it and I know that through everything, God has never left my side and has always walked with me where ever I have gone. To me, that is the greatest gift of all. I feel so much peace and always have felt it because I honestly and truly believe this.
I hope everyone is doing well and is able to feel the same peace I feel everyday. Love you all, Ginny.

Quotes that helped me through Life...

Wise words from such a good movie:

"For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."


-The Curious Case of Benjamin Button


“Everyone is always going through tough things, the irony in it is that everyone thinks what they're going through is just as hard as what you are. Life isn't about surviving this, it's about understanding this. ” 


-Nicholas Sparks


"Look not only to your interests, but also to the interests of others." -Phil 2:4

Save a place for me, I'll be there soon...

I wanna live my life, just like you did
Make the most of my time, just like you did
-Matthew West


You wonder all the time why things happen. Why God let's things happen.
You wonder if you did something wrong. Or if someone else did something wrong.
But it doesn't matter whether you did anything wrong or right. 
It's all in God's plan. And we will never understand it in our physical form. 
Not until we get to Heaven.


My problems do not compare to some people's problems in this world.
And I forget that a lot.
I should be thankful for everything I have and am blessed with.


You don't know how much time you have left on this earth.


I had a supernatural God-moment the other night. It's rather long and if you would
like to know, I would love to tell you but I don't think I will write it here.
It is neither good nor bad. It just happened. 


I don't think I'm going to my formal tonight. It just hurts too much because it seems so insignificant in
comparison to what happened.


I have been slowly and slowly drifting from God with each passing day. And I've been in denial about 
it, I know.


Now I rededicate my life to Him and total surrender. No more making excuses or cutting corners.
Changing will be hard but I'm determined to do it.


Know your memory lives on Travis Eiler. <3


"For any one of us our forever could end in an hour, or a hundred years from now. You never know for sure, so you'd better make every second count.” -Sarah Dessen

I feel like so many people pick the first two options.

And never even consider the third.

My last post was pretty depressing...I know.

That was probably the hardest couple weeks of my life. I probably

made some of the most hardest life changing decisions ever.

But I don't regret any of it.

I said some things I shouldn't have said but I think in the end it helped in the end more than it hurt.

Some people though don't seem to care how much I care about them. I show concern when they seem

to be hurting and what kind of response do I get? Nothing.

Well then so be it. See what happens when you actually need me.

I'm so happy now with the boy and how everything turned out. I really truly am so happy I found him

and can know he's there when I need him.

He's become another constant in my life that I can rely on.

I haven't had someone like that in a very long time.

I think my heart is not my own anymore. God and him both own a piece :)

Happy :)

I haven't felt this happy in a long time :)
I'm dating somebody now, and no it isn't just because of him.
Ok maybe it kind of is.
He's super sweet & funny, likes the red sox, coffee & goes to church. I like him a lot and glad I found him. It was a real God-thing that we met each other. We actually went to Boone Hall last night on our date night. Well first we went to IHOP and had my favorite food everrr, chocolate chip pancakes! Then we went to Boone Hall  to see my first ever haunted house. It was soo much fun, I'm so glad we went. Then we came home and got to hang out with my housemates. It was a great night overall.

School is kind of tough though but not as bad as last year so I'm getting through it.

Fall break is right around the corner. I don't know where the time goes. I'll be super glad for the time off though.

Going to work on some homework, yes on a Saturday night. What an exciting life I lead haha :)